LAST 2012 POST!

And NO it's not because of the stupid end of the world thing tomorrow. It's obviously because this is the last day of Media Productions before break! First semester went by super fast! Kinda....then again it was kinda slow. But oh well. I had an AWESOME idea of what I can do in here 2nd semester so I'm super excited about it but I'm too lazy to write it. Basically I wanna make a ''DV promo video'' for incoming freshman about clubs and classes for the middle school can show future freshman. And I won't blabber about it. But cool idea, yeah? Super. :) So I guess I will keep this one short and sweet and I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas and a happy new year!!! <3 <3 <3

Ramble Ramble..

It's so coooold! But the classroom is warm and cozy. :) I find that amusing because at the beginning of the year when it was freakishly hot outside, this class was freezing hahaha. Yep.  Anywaaaay.
Yesterday Will and I went to Paradise Bakery Cafe yesterday for the first time! He's had cookies from there before but has never gotten like food and same with me. So he got a Cuban chicken panini, I got a tomato mozzarella panini and we shared a cup of soup. Then before we left he got a peppermint mocha latte, and I got hot chocolate! Then we went to his house and made a ''Graduation Bucket List'' of things we want to do through second semester before graduation. Obviously. :) Then we're also making a ''2013 food list'' of places we like to eat, and places we haven't been to and every time we go to one of the places for the next year we are going to check it off. It sounds cool to be like a document f our food trips for the year and also helpful because a lot of times we have no idea where to go eat.

I'm excited for Christmas! :) but not working over break. hopefully I don't have to work terribly long shifts. But don't get me wrong, I do loooove the money! I just hate closing. Speaking of closing, I close tonight with my favorite person at work and my least favorite! Sooo I'm not sure what to expect. But its the psycho chick I was talking about and since the mall is on holiday hours now, and it closes at 10pm, I probably won't be getting home until like 12 and that is NOT right. That is so wrong for so many reasons. If I wasn't still in high school this might not be a problem but since I am, it is! And I have finals tomorrow! Grrrr.

How do my blogs end up being so long?! hahaha whooopss!

Senior Year- Half Way Over!!!

The fact that I onlt have about 5 months left of high school still hasn't hit me. After years of knowing all of these people, some since elementary even, I'm like never going to see any of them ever again. I'm pretty okay with that hahaha. But it's so crazy! Where has my life gone? Haha. I love high school and I'm going to miss it a lot, but I am SO excited to leave. :) I'm excited to see where life takes me! I want to travel and do so many fun things and I want to just have fun. High school has given me great memories and I feel lucky to have had such a simple time. Some people hate high school, take it for granted, waste it away, and let it fly by but I cherish it and I liked my time here. :) WOOOOO but I still have 5 months. Last year I was so sick of junior year and was ready to graduate then, but this year is a little better and I'm taking it a bit slower. I'll miss it, but not tooooo too too bad. ;)

Sandy Hook

I can't stop thinking about the Sandy Hook tragedy. I wish I could go there and give all the students like teddy bears and stuff. I really want to hug all of them. It's so so so sad... But it made me realize how much I want to be involved with helping in those situations. I now want to do crisis volunteering! I've wanted to before, but not as bad as I'd like to know. I realize that little things help and those little things are probably needed. I want to do on scene crisis volunteering for things like house fires, homicides, domestic violence, etc.. Anything to where I can go and give hugs, snacks, blankets, water, and/or toys if children are involved. I started looking into it yesterday and it said you have to be 21! :( I'm sure I can find something similar thought to do until then. :))

What I Like Best About the Christmas Holidays.

I LOVEEEEE buying and giving presents. I love it so much! I don't know why, but I just really love getting things for people and I'm a good gift giver. :) I'm not going to give examples of this years presents because Will might decide to stalk my blog and see what I got him >:). I also like the small remainder of houses that still put up Christmas lights. Neighborhoods seem so dead and its sad. I want to find a really spirited neighborhood cause growing up with my parents still together, we spent a whole month putting up lights! That was our thing. So it makes me happy when houses still go all out:) Ooooh and the FOOD! I love food allll the time but the holidays make it more acceptable to pig out, which I love. >:) I'm so happy Will is staying for Christmas because although we've been together for 2 years, we have never been in the same state on Christmas and deep down it kind of made me sad cause all I would see is happy couples every year and you're supposed to spend the holidays with your lovers not miss them! So this year I won't have to miss him! :) yayayay!

MERP MERP.

It's coooolld! Again. But anywayy... I want it to be break already. And I think Will is staying here for break! He always goes to his dads for winter, spring and some of summer break but this year he has a job now and he has to do some things for AcaDeca... I feel bad cause I know even though he's not showing it, he's probably sad because it'll be his first Christmas without his dad in a looooong time.. or maybe ever? I don't know. It makes me kind of sad. BUT it also makes me really happy because it'll be our first Christmas together!!! :) Like our 3rd Christmas as a couple, but first Christmas like together..like physically and in the same state haha. Yay! I'll make sure he has an AMAZING Christmas!!! Yayayay:) Oh and maybe he can finally meet my dads side of the family. Muahahaha that'd be fun. :) Ugh I just hope I don't have to work on Christmas Eve.. and if I do, I hope I can get out before 4.. I'll be soo sad if I can't because Christmas Eve night is like really important to my mom and I. So yeah. I'm excited for Will to be here though! yayayay :)

FINALS

Now that I know I don't have to do the car scene it really lifts a weight off of me haha. I was going to do it and I had a really good idea and I was excited for it, but with work I kind of had no time. Sooo I'm relieved but if I have spare time, I'm planning on doing it anyway. I just feel better knowing it won't hurt my grade. WOO! And I'm so so so excited because I got my schedule changed for next semester and now I'll only have 6 classes!

Merp.

I have so many cookies and I'm trying so hard no to snack on them because 1, they are for my cast.. and 2, I am trying to be healthy! haha. I'm really getting good at eating well and I think it's starting to show. :) slowly but surely I will be all nice and fit and I'll be happier with my appearance. WOO! Haha. So last night I didn't get off of work until 11! Thank goodness I wasn't working with that psycho again or I would have gotten out at like 12:30. I'm so glad I don't have to work with her this week especially now that the mall hours are extended. And I have tomorrow and Thursday off of work so yay! Tomorrow is my one act that I directed and then Thursday I wanna get my license!!!! Then I sadly work AND close on Friday and Saturday and then Sunday is my family holiday party that I look forward to every year. And then senior year is half way done and high school is coming to an end! Ahhh!!

My nose is froze!!

Arizona's weather is as indecisive as I am. It wants to be warm, then not as warm but then the next day be freezing then back to really warm again. How annoying. But I'm glad I live here and not somewhere where it snows and/or you have to wear like 20 pounds of warm clothes. But I'm really cold haha.

So I hope Kodi, Anthony, Jonah and I are all going to be able to hang out the same day to film our final. It'll be really fun buuut I have so much to do and all of us but Kodi have jobs, so this might be difficult figuring out when we can all get together. The only days I have off are Wednesday and Thursday, but Wednesday is my one act show that I directed, and I was planning on getting my liscense on Thurday. But I can always get my liscense but I can't always just do a final so maybe we can film then. Aren't I so nice? I'm a good student. :) haha

I Work With A Psycho

So I'm still new to the working world and although I like having a job, I don't know if I like the job itself....especially with this ''new'' girl...haha.

So the mall closes at 9 and closing the Mrs. Feilds/Pretzelmaker store itself should be done at 9:30 because that's the latest people are scheduled to work and it shouldn't take any longer than that to clean and close, right? Plus that's perfect for me still being a high school student and it's a good time to get off work because it's not too late. So tell me why I didn't get home until 11 last night. BECAUSE I WORK WITH A PSYCHO NOW. THAT'S WHY. Oh my goodness there is this new chick at work and she started maybe 3 weeks ago. But the thing is, she used to work there 7 years ago and now she's back and she thinks she is the H.B.I.C and if you don't know what that is, look it up because this blog page is for school and I don't want to say it and get in trouble haha. But since she did work there for 2 years she is a full time shift leader already yet she's still learning JUST as much as me! This wouldn't be that much of a problem if she wasn't so rude and bossy. She is taking this job WAY too seriously and yeah I understand running a nice business and having a nice reputation but common, it's a freaking pretzelplace! If you wanna get all crazy about a job at least do it in a nice renowned career. But a mall pretzel place? NO. CALM DOWN. She made checklists and made us initial what we did so ''the right person can get in trouble'' and check 4 TIMES that the checklist was correct and making sure the things were still done. HOW WOULD THEY GET UN-DONE?! And I had to mop TWICE because the first time I left soap streaks....And we had to SCRUB CORNERS AND CREASES?!?! WHAT?! Ugh it was so crazy... I can't even explain the rest. It was honestly too much. Like the owner has us scheduled to work 30 minutes after the mall closes because cleaning and closing our store should ONLY take 30 minutes! NOT AND HOUR AND A HALF. And like I said, I understand that keeping a nice clean store is important BUT she is taking ''cray cray'' to an all new level.

I'm so glad the week is almost over! But I'm not really looking forward to working/closing tonight and tomorrow night. BUT my paycheck is going to be SOOO niiiicee next week, so I guess it's worth it. :) But anyway I'm glad the week is almost over because I've been waiting for Saturday for a long time because something exciting is happening! I'm going with Will and his mom to his grandparents house for a Christmas/Birthday party thing for his grandpa! I've met them once but it was only for like 5 minutes so I don't really count it. So I'm excited! They actually invited me too, so it's not like Will is just bringing me along just because. So yeah, I don't know why I'm so excited but I am and I even requested to work any day but Saturday so I could go. That's why I worked so much this week...just for Will. :)

SO the callback list for the musical was put up lat night and I did not get a callback. This is either VERY good or VERY bad. That's because you can still be casted if you don't get a call back. I also put that I only put one role that I wanted and it wasn't a lead, and callbacks are mainly for leads so hopefully Mrs. Bell wants me for sure for the role I want and I don't need a callback. Either that or she doesn't want me at all and I get no callback or a role! hahaha. I'm going to have a terrible second half of senior year if I don't get the part. The first half kind of already sucked after getting NO role in the fall play, but I'll be 10 times more sad if I'm not in the musical either. But anyway... I think I'm done talking. haha. Oh and I saw Coach Larsens son before they left at the beginning or 2nd hour and he was sooo cute! Just thought I'd put that in here. :)

Finals

I am very excited to do this final because Kodi and I are going to reunite with Anthony and Jonah!! We all had soooo much fun doing the final together last year and worked very well together! And even though Jonah moved and Anthony isn't in this class this year, Kodi and I really want to get the crew back together for this green screen/car final! It's going to be really funny and I think we got it planned out. We're going to be on a road trip, and then like an hour into the drive the radio breaks and noone has their ipod. So then we all go crazy and start singing and then irrating each other and it's a terribly annoying drive. I think it'll be really funny especially since we probably will start irritatating each other hahaha. Yay!

Today is MUSICAL AUDITIONS!! I'm so excited! I've been waiting for this since August so I am READY! I really really really really really hope I get the part as Dulcie. It's not even a lead so it's really not that big of a deal to give me that part and I deserve it! GGRRR! hahaha. I've been trying too hard to fit in in theatre, be liked in theatre, and get good roles and if I could just get this role it'll be worth it! If I don't I can't even fathom how utterly upset I will be if I don't get this part. My senior year will literally ruined since the first half was messed up from getting NO role in the fall play. I will be SOOOO sad. Noone would appreciate the role as much as I would, noone would dedicate themselves as much and noone would love it as much as I would. It's one thing that will either make or break my senior year, so I'm ready to give all I got in my auditions today. Wish me luck!

Hihihi

The topic is about the green screen project, but since I was not a part of it I guess I will ramble! Soo I'm kind of mad about the musical because people are probably already mentally casted and auditions are probably pointless because of that. Like I could give you the cast list right now. It's so obvious. It upsets me because it makes me feel like I have no chance, again. Uggghhh. It's not like giving me the part I want will ruin the musical. I just really hope I get lucky. I am so desperate for the part of Dulcie... hahaha. Soooo annoying. But we will see! So this weekend I gotta get my stuff together!! I have to work tomorrow, and probably Sunday but I also have to do a book report that's due Tuesday but I haven't even read. SENIORITIS AT IT'S BEST! But I get my check today so...yay.

Last Time I Did Something Nice For Someone

I try to do something nice for someone everyday but those are usually small and almost unimportant things. But the last time I did something SUPER nice was last week on Thanksgiving. I work at Mrs. Fields/Pretzelmaker at the mall and the people who close get to take home all of the the leftover cookies. So since I worked the night before Thanksgiving I brought home a lot of cookies to have with dessert. I knew it would be me, my mom, her boyfriend, my grandma and grandpa so I made sure I got specific cookies for everyone. I do that every time I close but not for my moms boyfriend because I don't see him. But it was a big deal that I brought him special cookies because he's not my all time favorite person and he kind of knows that so I felt really nice bringing him nice cookies. I'm sure I've done plenty of nice things since then buuuuut I don't know haha.

I think for the first time in this class I'm not freezing! I'm cold...just not freezing haha. :) So I'm very worried for a project I have coming up. It's considered a book report but the format isn't like one. It's pretty easy buuuuut I haven't read any book and it's due next week! I know I can do it and still do a decent job but I just don't know where to begin and I only have until Tuesday, and I can't work on it Saturday. I better start working on it today but who knows. I do SUPER well with things I procrastinate on (always better than when I work on things for a long time) and I always do it all at once because once I start I keep going until I'm done but I'm just dreading the whole process of doing it hahaha. Its my fault though so I can't complain. Just kidding, yes I can. :) Also next week issssssss musical auditions!!!!! I have been waiting for this!! I am so looking forward to the musical this year because even though we just found out the musical we're doing last week, I had a feeling it would be The Boy Friend so I've been ''studying'' it since summer so I am SO prepared and determined to get the role I am dying to have! hahaha. Okay I think I'm done talking before I accidentally start rambling about something else.

Favorite Christmas Memory

I can't pick just one memory to be my favorite. I just really miss every Christmas that my mom, dad and I were the cutest little family. This year will be the 5th Christmas without them together...dang haha. But it makes me really sad because Christmas was always awesome.

I used to loooove how festive my dad used to get with Christmas lights. Our house was the most popular on the block every year. We would always have people parked across the street just admiring the prettiness. We honestly would have hundreds of strands, thousands of lights. It would take him about a month to do and it was always perfect. I just remember the day he would start taking out the lights was so exciting to me. Now every time I see Christmas lights it makes me really sad..haha. My mom misses the lights too and of we're driving and see a house with lights we'll judge the crap out of it and then laugh at ourselves and I'm pretty sure its a way to cover our sadness. hahaha.

But Christmas was always the same. Christmas Eve night, the 3 of us would leave at about 7 o'clock and drive around for a few hours looking at Christmas lights. Then we'd get back around 9 and then open presents. There were always so many presents for all 3 of us... That also makes me miss going Christmas shopping for my mom with my dad, and for my dad with my mom. But then Christmas Day we would go to my moms side of the family's party thing and then my dads. We always went to both sides which was super cool.

The first couple of years of my parents being separated I would still do the Christmas Eve night with my mom and then Christmas breakfast with her and then go with my dad on Christmas afternoon-evening. But now my dad is in a weird funk and I've been spending Christmas alllll with my mommy and I'm fine with that. I just wish I could go back live those Christmas's again with the 3 of us together...

Smile!

I'm very happy today! But it's funny, everytime I'm happy I always notice I have a bored look on my face. I can be screaming of excitement on the inside but on the outside my face is like blank. So don't let my unexpressed face fool you hahaha. But I'm happy because Will is back home from Texas, and Christmas is coming up and I get payed Friday, and I have sooo many fun plans for December starting next week with musical auditions and getting my license!!!! AHHH! I'm sooo excited. :)) Yayayayayayayay. See, I'm super excited but I probably look so stoic hahaha.

Soo besides Thanksgiving Day itself, I worked everyday of the break hahaha. But on Friday my mommy and I set up the Christmas tree and then Saturday I went out to dinner with my grandma and grandpa. But yeah I was at work most of the time. :) And I'm pretty sure I gained 50 pounds on Thanksgiving but it was soo worth it.

Happy Thanksgiving Eve!! & My plans for Thanksgiving.

I'm soo happy that it's thanksgiving tomorrow!! Happy Thanksgiving Eve! haha. Okay my plans for tomorrowwww.... My grandma, grandpa, and my moms boyfriend are coming over and my mommy and I are making most of the food! I'm really excited to have it at out place this year. :) Oh and I wanna wake up early to watch the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade but I haven't gotten much sleep lately and I work tonight so I'm going to be so tired. But I think I'll still force myself to wake up early. :)

I feel like everyone has donuts. In first hour the monopoly winners got donuts, on the way to this class I saw someone with a donut, and now I'm watching the Newspaper people eating donuts. SOOO TEMPTING! I am trying so hard to be healthy...until tomorrow of course. I give myself tomorrow and Friday as a free day but after that I have to continue eating healthy. I'm really wanting to look nicer but I love food, so it's been kind of difficult for me haha.

Oh so yesterday was one of the best days ever!! Sooo in this class (sorry Coach Larsen) I finished making a calendar for Wills Chrismas present and I wanted to see how much it would be because last year I got a tiny discount and it was $23. So I clicked check out and it was going to be $30 but then I remembered I had a discount code. So after entering the code it was about $23 and I was wondering when I could buy it. But THEEEN for some reason I decided to google ''shutterfly discount codes'' and there was a code for a FREE calendar! I got super excited but wasn't sure if it was a fake code so I went back to shutterfly, entered the code and then THE TOTAL WAS $6.00!! The only thing charged was S&H!! So right away out of instinct I took out my card and ordered it cause that was like the best deal ever and it's already been through production, it's sent out, and it should be here next week!! Hahaha I got so super happy and that was just 1 of 3 things that made my day great! So I'll sum up the second thing.. at lunch I talked to my mom and she said she was planning on getting the Hawaii tickets for Will and me for summer!! She said they are really cheap right now and within the next couple of weeks we're going ot have to plan dates and buy tickets! THAT made my day like a billion times even happier! THEN to top it off....I found out the musical is going to be THE BOY FRIEND!!!!! I was DYING for it to be that so I'm soooooo happy!! Will and I want very specific parts and we are super determined to get them! YAY! It was just a super great day! :)

What Are You Thankful For?

I am sooo happy that this was the question because I've been wanting to do something involving what I'm thankful for! So yay!:)

Well I'm a very thankful person because I think I am very lucky to live the life that I do because I know many people would do anything to have a life like mine. I don't mean that in a bragging way, I just think a lot of people are more fortunate than they realize, and I realize it so I cherish it. :)

 Now for a list! I am thankful for:

-My mom who works SOO hard for me and herself to be able to eat, have shelter and ALWAYS fun.
-My dad who even if I don't see him too often he still makes me smile.
-My grandma and grandpa who have always been my second set of parents who give me sooo much.
-My boyfriend Will who has been my best friend for almost 3 years now and he brings so much fun and nothing but happiness to my life.
-My job since a lot of people struggle to have one.
-Music and the fun dances they put upon me.
-Fooood! I love foooood!! I could cry about how happy I am that I can always have food.
-Clean water because I love water and a lot of places can't enjoy their water because it is unconsumable.
-My education! It's free and we have more technology at schools than 3rd worlds could ever fathom.
-The Ellen Show and all the joy it brings to me every day and the hope it gives me to be on the show haha:)
-Technology because without it I don't know what I would ever do as a career.
-My comfy bed because so many people don't even have one.
-My ''cousin'' Jake who lives over 2,000 miles away. We wait alllll year to see eachother and then have the most fun together every time as if we will never see eachother again. I don't think our friendship would be the same if he lived here because I don't think we would cherish our friendship as much.
-My Hawaii ''Family'' (My moms boyfriends family) Sue, Calvin, Sandy, Bruce, Jake and Dominic because they treat me better than most of my actual family. There's nothing better than waiting all year to fly to Hawaii and get there and be able to have an amazing time with the funniest and nicest people who take care of you every day. :)

Blaaahhh!

I am still sick! I even had to call in sick to work which sucked because I'm super new, and because I never miss school but since I work with food you can't go even if you can handle it. I would have gone but my freaking voice decided to take a vacation and I could not talk. When I tried talking I felt like I was going to pass out because it took so much energy trying to be audible haha. I have my voice back now but I sound weird so as soon as that goes, I'll be super happy! I'm glad I was sick last week though instead of this week because being sick sucks to start with, but if I were sick on Thanksgiving I would cry! And then I think next week might be the musical auditions so yeah, it's a good thing the cold is leaving!

I'm glad Coach Larsen is back and I'm glad he enjoyed his time off with his new baby!! :)

I'm not good at blogs with no given topic!!

I feel even worse than I did yesterday! Stupid headcold. I still went to dinner with Will yesterday even though I said I wouldn't and it was really good! I wanted to go out on a dinner date tonight too, but I feel like poop and I just want sick food...like soup. :) I made potato soup last night and it was really yummy! I want to go to Ginger for dinner though. Haha. :) OH I GET MY FIRST PAYCHECK TODAY! How exiting. :) I have already put too many smiley faces haha. Sorrrry. But anyway I want soup but I also want Ginger. I can get yummy hot tea if I go. Hmmmm. Okay I know I'm being really random, but oh well. Next topic... I wish it was a half day. I feel like it should be and it would make me feel less sick haha. I have to sit in classes for 7 hours and try to be as attentive as possible. Being sick at school really sucks but missing school is even worse. Soo I'm here! Obviously. Okay before I shut up, I want to see Coach Larsens new baby!! I can't wait for him to come back and tell us about her! :) I think its a girl...Mikki said it was so if I'm wrong, than woops! I'm so excited for him! :) So many happy faces! Oh okay last thing.. I just went to save this and I accidently hit the ''back'' button and I was about to cry because I just rambled on forever and I would have been upset if it didn't save. But it did. Yay!

EYE ESS CEE KAY

I am sicky and that makes me sad!! :( But then again, I don't know who wakes up sick and is like ''YAY I'M SICK!!'' sooo... hahaha. I just was having a really good week and now my enthusiasm poofed away! I'm still happy though.. just blah. When I get home I want to wrap up in a ball of blankets, drink hot tea and have some soup. That sounds so gooood! I feel bad though because Will and I had dinner plans for today but I don't think I can taste and I don't really feel up to eating something super nice. Just soup! Maybe he can bring me a slushy or some other really hot or cold drink. :) But I get my first ever paycheck tomorrow so maybe we can go out to eat then! :) yumyumyum. Hopefully I feel better!

I hope Mr. Larsen is having fun with his new baby! That must be so exciting. :) I am an only child but if I were to have siblings I would want a whole bunch of siblings, not just 2-3. I looooove being an only child in every way possible, but I think it'd be really cool to have an enormous family! I hope he brings pictures! :)

Yay!

Soo yesterday was super fun! After school Will and I went to the Corner Bakery Cafe and it was super yummy AND healthy! Then we walked to the mall and every time we go I NEVER get anything. Like I said on here yesterday, I am not like most teenage girls because I hate spending money. But also like I said yesterday, I wanted wintery clothes so yesterday I actually bought new clothes!! I am so happy and I'm sure Will was also glad that I finally got something cause we usually just walk around and I only window shop. I got a skirt, cute leggings, 2 comfy sweaters and Will got me a scarf! Yay! And then as a snack when I got home I had celery and peanut butter which made me happy cause I was healthy all day! Go Kristi. So for once I actually look like I'm stylish haha. But then I have to go home and change into my work uniform and look ugly. Oh well. It's my last day of work before I get my first paycheck! WOOO!

BRRR

I'm cold. I wish I had cuter winter clothes. But ya knoooow, I get my first paycheck this week soo maybe I can invest in some! I really want to save up for Hawaii tickets for Will and I though. That's my main focus with money saving and then once I get the tickets (hopefully in January) then I'll just be saving like 95% of my paychecks. I'm super good at not spending money. I think that's pretty impressive for a teenage girl. :) yaaaay. So yeah, Hawaii tickets, maybe some new clothes, and a new retainer and then saving to move out! Yeeeee.

So over the weekend I went to the Academic Decathlon competition to see Will on Saturday and he did amazing! He is so freakishly smart! He got 3 first place medals and 1 silver! I'm so proud of him. :) But then again I wonder what is the point of learning things like trigonometry, Russian literature, space exploration academies, and worldwide economics if all he wants to do is be a chef... but whatavaaa! haha. Whatever floats his boat.

Describe Deer Valley in 5 Words

Well Deer Valley is a lot different from how it was my freshman year. It's kind of weird actually. My freshman year the school was all cool and ghetto. The classrooms were small, the halls were tile, the rules were not strict at ALL. Then sophomore year is was a whole bunch of construction, billions of false alarm fire drills, switching classrooms to temporary rooms from construction, watching the rooms become fancier with more room and smartboards. Then last year it was all finished and fancy looking and cool. :) Now it's all fancy but the rules are ridiculous and its not as free spirited as it was my freshman year but I still like DV. :)

Okay so 5 words:
-Uptight
-Spirited
-Loud
-Fun
-Diverse

Diverse is the best word to use. Deer Valley is a lot of different things and the students are very diverse as well. We have such a variety of looks, religions, ethnicity's and personalities and I really like it. :)
One REALLY cool thing is that I don't think DV has any cliques. I know some people think so but I beg to differ. People mix really well here and I think there are some pretty random groups of people who talk who you wouldn't expect from those types of people. Like I'm a super shy loner, but popular people are really nice to me. The cheerleaders are a super nice to everyone which you'd never expect.  Besides a few bruises here and there, every ''type'' of kid easily gets along with anyone and I really like that. :)

What is My Favorite Class? Which is Most Valuable For My Future?

My favorite class AND the most useful for my future both happen to be my favorite, and it happens to be THIS CLASS!:) I want to open a videography business after taking a couple classes at the film school at Scottsdale Community College. I love love love media and editing. :) I'm glad I'm in this class but I wish they had it all 4 years that I was here, not just my last 2! :( Maybe sometime in my future I can be a media production teacher on the side like Coach Larsen here at DV! That would be super cool. Or maybe if he still is teaching it here, I can come visit to talk about my career and/or to help with cool and special assignments. Now that I think of that, that sounds super cool. Just be like ''I was in this same class as you __ years ago and I learned a lot of helpful things and now I have this videography business bla bla bla and Coach Larsen is awesome!'' I want to do that now hahaha.That would be so fun to come back every once in a while! I have to convince Larsen to stay a few more years. hehehe.


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I find language arts to be pointless at this point, we could have stopped after like Sophomore year because now it's just a bunch of random knowledge and not everyone is always going to speak properly and use correct grammar, and the people who will don't need to take the class.

Math has been pointless after 8th grade. I will NEVER use a bell curve, use the quadratic formula, use ANYTHING that I've learned in HS math EVER. Instead of doing pointless math classes, they should have more ''econ'' type classes because in there we learn important things like budgeting, writing checks and buying cars and houses and such. They should have maybe 1 math class, then 1 or 2 whole years instead of half a semester of econ and that's it.

History and Science are a bit pointless too, but I won't go into detail.


What I think is if we DO need to learn all the special and in between the line type things in academics, then go to college for it. Don't put all of us through the pointless things if its only useful to 1 person. If you want to be in journalism, be a writer, study literature -take the classes in college. If you want to be a scientist or chemist- take those classes in college, and so on. We should be able to pick every class every year, but oh well...it's my last year in high school and my brain is now mushed with random knowledge. But that's just what I think. :)

Thoughts On Election Results

I was kind of expecting Obama to win a second term. I'm not happy about it, but I'm not super upset like some people. I wouldn't have been happy if Mitt Romney won either because like I said yesterday, they both kinda suck. I kind of wish Romney would have won though just to see everyone freak out  (good and bad) ahahaha. That would have been hilarious. But anyway, like I said yesterday, presidents don't even do work, they give work to congressmen and the military and they do it. And I really hate all these teenagers getting all wound up over politics because none of them even know what they're taking about and they are extremely annoying. I'm glad this will all settle down soon so everyone can shut up. I'm not expecting anything good to happen to the country because I don't believe anyone can fix us at this point, but I know Obama will not help at all. haha. Weee! Do I always end my blogs with ''weeee?''... I feel like I do. Hmm. Okay bye. :)

Who Would I Choose To Vote For

      Well I actually could have voted today, but I didn't register to. I think both candidates suck and I'm not educated enough to vote anyway. That's my own fault because I could do research myself but it's too difficult to know what's true and isn't true and it's annoying. Also, I don't know enough about the national issues, and when I try to watch debates it's like a foreign language me and its all a bunch of blah. The presidents aren't even the ones who fix all the problems anyway, it's the congressmen. I think voting for congressmen is more important since they do all of the work. Plus, our votes don't matter. Our state people are the ones whose votes are counted. Our votes are only counted for our state issues. I don't like politics, I don't like the candidates but what I do like are all of the parodies on Saturday Night Live. It just shows how dumb both of them are. :) I really like Jay Pharoah and Jason Sudekeis' impersonations. hahahahaha :)

FIRST DAY OF WORK!

Sooo I got a job at the Mrs. Fields Bakery at the mall and today is my first day of training! I'm kind of nervous but I think I will be fine. I just hope I catch on quick so I can be done with training and do it by myself and know it all already. Being taught and watched makes me nervous but I gotta do it sometime in my life haha. Yaaay! I hope they're nice and understanding if I mess up or ask questions. EEEP!

Deer Valley

No mater how many people claim to hate this place, I love Deer Valley. I liked it even before I got here. My mom and dad went here, I had some cousins that went here and its just... I don't know. I was always excited to get here and I know I'm going to be sad when I leave. I will be glad that I am done with high school but sad about saying goodbye to Deer Valley. I also like how some of the teachers have been here forever. That would be cool too. Ohh maybe I can be a media production teacher here! hahaha that'd be awesome. yay. :)

I Got A Job!! :D

Soooo my first interview landed me a job! On Monday I will begin training at Mrs. Feilds Bakery/PretzelMaker at the mall!! I'm so excited! :) I'll finally be making money hahaha. I turned my application in on Friday, got called Monday, had an interview and was hired Tueday! It was pretty fast. And the interview wasn't much of an interview. He didn't ask me anything, he just told me about the place and told me to come in Monday for training! hahaha.

Favorite Actor/Actress...

I really don't have a favorite actor or actress. I basically like anyone who does a lot of comedy like Kristen Wiig and Maya Rudolph...I feel bad for not having anything to say for this... I'm not much a movie person. I'd rather film, make and edit them. Hahaha. :)

Favorite TV Show

My favorite TV show is ELLEN!! :) I love Ellen haha. I love coming home, getting comfy, getting a snack and then just relax and watch her show. Being on her show is my dreeeaaam! She's just so weird and super funny and I totally want to have a show just like hers when I grow up. I'll list some other TV shows I watch because otherwise I will ramble on about Ellen forever.

I likeeee
- Long Island Medium
- Married to Jonas...hahahaha
- Full House!!!
- Saturday Night Live
- Teen Mom even though it's over now
- Jersey Shore and I don't care what anyone says, I find the show amusing. So get over it. hahaha

My Weekend

So my plan for Friday was to fill out all of my applications and take them to the places and fill up enough time until 3 o'clock when Will got out of rehearsal. So I did that and I turned in about 5 applications. So as far as plans with Will went, we were supposed to go to dinner then carve pumpkins but after we ate, we forgot and went to the mall instead. At the mall we turned in 4 applications and it was lotsa fun! So Saturday we ended up carving pumpkins and it was Wills first time doing so. I think he had a deprived childhood because there are so many things he hasn't done, but then its fun for me cause then I know that he'll remember doing things with me for the first time forever! :) His pumpkin turned out really good and I'm pretty sure he had a lot of fun! Yesterday was terrible and it was suuuuch a long day. I layed there forever and had very bad and random anxiety. I didn't feel good so I just layed there like a bum all day. And I was in a bad mood and I still am but oh well. I'm just ready for this week to be over because this week is going to suck for reasons I'd rather not talk about because there is a good chance I'll cry. So yeah. Yay. Woo. Stuff.

Where I Get My Belief System

I get my belief system from nothing but my crazy mind. My dads parents are really really Christian and religious so until 2nd grade I was in a Christian school. My mom and dad aren't religious though, so once my dads parents stopped being so pushy with how to raise me, we stopped going to church. I have no ''religion'' really. I don't have time to waste believing in something that might not even be beneficial. I belive after you die, you're dead. You don't go anywhere. Your existence is gone. You don't go anywhere but in the ground or into a cremator... you're just dead. But I do believe in spirits :) .... hahahaha that's unrelated but oh well. :) You're spirit can leave a legacy and live on but you yourself are nothing. That sounds so blunt, but it's true.


Here's my ''religion''... I have this exact canvas in my room! :)

Are My Parents Coming To Parent Teacher Confrences?

Nope! They're not. I feel like parent-teacher conferences are for students how are troublesome or doing poorly academically. I fall into neither of those categories. I'm pretty sure if we were to come for conferences we would just hear ''She's doing well with her work, she's quiet, and there's nothing to worry about'' from all of the teachers. So it's kind of pointless. And if a teacher thinks I can do something to improve myself, they can just tell me in class. haha. It would be nice to talk to all of my teachers with my parents but it'd be a waste of time to the teachers because they probably have really important and necessary confrences to take care of. Weee.


So I'm excited for after school cause my grandma, mom and I are going to Ginger for lunch! It's a very yummy Chinese bistro place. And it's healthy, so that makes me happy since I'm trying to lose some weight. Then I'm going to drive around to take some applications to places. I spent a long time yesterday printing out and filling out applications online and on paper. So far online I've applied for 6 or 7 jobs and then I have 6 to take to places today. And I have a feeling thats what I'm going to do all weekend because I really want a job!!! I need a food handlers card though and Will was supposed to give my his practice study book but his brother lost it. Then I'm also excited to get my license in a couple of weeks! It all sounds fun and exciting so hopefully ALL of it will work out well!

Blah

I am soooo tired. The wedding project was due today and I had to finish it up last night, but everything was going wrong haha. It was a really wasy project, just not when your partner leaves you to do so much by yourself. But that's still my fault and oh well. It turned out very nice so I don't really care. I'm just excited to go night night.

One Thing I Want To Do Before I Get Out Of High School

One thing I'd like to do (by the end of the year, for me) is get a nice/decent part in the musical. Mrs. Bell doesn't like me and for the past 4 years of putting up with either getting no roles, crappy roles and suuuper annoying people, I don't think a good role is too much to ask for. She doesn't really know how much I am capable of. And not to be rude but after 4years of seeing/being in the productions, her casting isn't too flattering and I could do just as well as everyone else, including the leads. I'm pretty sure she doesn't like me because I'm quiet but that shouldn't matter because I believe that I am a good performer. I got a nice part in Guys and Dolls last year as a hotbox girl and I love love loved it. I would like a just as good or better part. Especially after getting NO part in the freaking fall play which I worked sooooo hard to get!! It was the first time I actually felt confident, even though I was terribly sick, and then I got shot down like no other. GRRRR. Anywayy.....It wouldn't kill her to give me something I've been trying to work at all this time in high school. Unless the musical they pick is dumb then I don't want to do it. Hahahahaha. Just kidding. But seriously.

I'M 18 NOW!

Sooo yesterday I turned 18 and I had a very fun and perfect weekend. I had a birthday dinner on Friday then I went to the homecoming game with Will which was fuuuun, Saturday Will took me to the fair and it was perfect and so so so so fun, and then yesterday Will was over all day, brought me donuts and pumpkin coffee, a lava lamp and some lotion. Yaaaay. Oh and then I went out to dinner with my mom, dad and Will and it was a lot of fun. It was so fun and I said fun like a billion times but that's what it was. So yay. :)

Free Press Definition

The definition of free press is politic related press that is not restricted or censored by the government. Compared to state run media, things are censored and restricted but obviously by the state and not the government.

What is Propaganda

Propaganda, to me, is like persuasive advertising. It's used a lot in politics and they're made to develope others attitudes towards something. Visually, they're usually obnoxious and ''loud'' to get attention and lure people into what they think others should believe.

Do You Believe Everyone Should Be Equal?

That's a hard question. I guess not, because no one is equal. There are nice people, mean people, insane people, smart people, harmful people, nurturing people... on and on and on. No one treats each other equal anyway, so there is no use in really forcing it to happen because it's not going to. Theres no way to make every single person act once certain way towards anyone. Instead of equal, depending on what kind of person you are, you should treat everyone nice unless they give you a reason not to which most people end up doing. hahaha.

Thoughts About Wearing Pink During Breast Cancer Awareness Month

Well, I'm a little hypocritical about wearing specific colors for awarenesses. Like I think wearing blue for bullying and yellow for suicide awareness is pointless because wearing a color isn't going to stop the bullying or reduce suicide rates. But I do like wearing pink for breast cancer even though it's not going to stop or get rid of breast cancer. I like it because I can tell people genuinely care about the cause. I also like it because it gives a whole month instead of one day. But I think we need to be aware of bad things all year round, not just one day or month. Every cause should have a week out of the year so every week we're taking part of something important. Wearing colors alone won't take problems away, but if it was a constant thing maybe it would drill into someones soul to the point of actually taking part in something to actually help. :)

Journal

So yesterday I was visited twice by the idea Gods... hahaha. I finally have an actual plan for after school. I mean I already had a plan, but it wasn't super elaborate until yesterday but it's still related. I was going back and forth between doind wedding cinematography and television producing but then I was enlightened haha. I am going to start a videography business for pretty much everything! I will make little commercials for businesses' websites like hotels, apartments, restaurants, and hospitals along with providing them with slide shows of their facilities to play in their offices. Then, along with businesses, I will do personal things too and providing DVDs now that I know how to publish DVDs and make DVD menus thanks to Mr. Larsen! :) This way, I can still work with weddings by doing slide shows for them but then I thought of a gift plan for weddings and baby showers! So this would mean for anyone who was going to a wedding or baby shower, or even if they couldn't make it, I could meet with all of the people and they could give ''well wishes'' to the newlyweds or the new parents and then the DVD would be the gift! :) I can also publish DVDs for parties, or go to high schools to film their dance concerts, fall plays, and musicals. I am so excited and I think it's an awesome idea. It gives me the variety I would want, instead of just working with weddings all the time. Then if I get bored with that then I can go into crime scene photography because for a long time I wanted to work on crime scene, so that works out perfect! :) Then, I came up with ANOTHER idea for home. Will is going to culinary school , so I can totally make him a cooking channel on YouTube and then give him like a blog that I can run, and that can be how we make our extra money during college. :) Sooo I told my mom this, and for my first practice thing for a website commercial, my mom is going to set up a meeting with her CEO and me to talk about it and hopefully set it up! She knows he will let me, so I'm excited to get a head start to make sure my idea actually has some promising value haha. and if this seems to be promising, instead of blowing a ton of money on Film School, I might only take a couple related classes here and there to help me improve my skills since degrees aren't even promising or even needed anymore. If you're skilled, you will have a nice future no matter what. Being smart isn't enough these days because anyone can get a degree. So I might have to tweak my college plans a little bit. But I'm really excited! :) Life is so exciting!!

Biggest Test Or Project Coming Up

On the 24th my wedding project for economics is due. It's such a huge project but it's been really easy. It's a lot of fun too, and I feel lucky because I got paired up with a girl who I've known since freshman year. I'm glad I didn't get paired with a guy who either I didn't know, didn't like, or a guy who wouldn't help with the project. We have to get married within $10,000 and our honeymoon budget is $2,000 but the requirements are very strict and specific. We're about half way done but we only have 2 more weeks.

Current Events That I'm Interested In

I don't know any current events to be honest. The only one I can think of, if it even counts, is the elections going on...but I am not very interested in them hahaha. I feel bad for not knowing any... I feel pretty dumb too. haha. But it's so weird thinking about the crazy events going on worldwide and how corrupt and scary other countries are. I feel lucky to live in the United States and I feel loved knowing that hundreds and hundreds of men are over seas fighting for my freedom so I don't have to live like other unfortunate countries. And that is all I can think to say since I am uneducated of currents events. Whoops.

So I am a theatre director for the 3/4 theatre class along with Will and a girl named Megan and today we get to tell the class whose one act they've been casted in!! I'm so excited! I realized after I casted that I have everyone who I wanted to be in my one act haha. But today before we tell them, we are going to have a fake fight to make it seem like we're fighting over who we want in our casts. It's going ot be sooo funny! Ahhh I'm so excited. I really love my cast already but they don't even know they are my cast. muahahaha >:)

Did I Watch The Presidental Debate?

No. I was here at school ordering my cap & gown and graduation things, and once I got home it was almost over. I'm not sure if I would have watched it though even if I was home because at this point, no one can really help our country. We have gone down hill way too much, so even though Obama has done nothing to help I don't think Romney could do all too much either. I think we need Ellen Degeneres as a candidate. I think she is most qualified and more likely to improve our country with happiness and dance. I can only imagine how majestic and exciting the country could be under her power hahaha. In a perfect world, Ellen would be president. And that is all. :)

My Dream Last Night

   So I had the craziest dream last night.

   It was sad, creepy, and it was just weird that I had it. So in my dream I was with my mom and we went to New York to see the Twin Towers. In my dream, 9/11 was still an event that happened but the towers never collapsed and they were turned into museums. Every single thing was left in the towers- the plane, the people, the damage, the debris... it was honestly terrifying.

  So how it worked in my dream was you would take the elevator to whatever floor, and when the doors would open you saw the entire floor. My mom wanted to go to a lot of floors, but after going to 2 we stopped since I was crying because I was really upset and scared. It really creeped me out because we went on the floor below the floor that the plane crashed through and they had like a ''4D experience'' type thing. My mom and I didn't do it, but we watched. 
They explained how when the plane crashed through the floor above it crashed into a water pipe and flooded that floor, so as the people sat and listened to the story they had water flow over their feet.


   Besides the unrealistic ''4D attraction'', the dream was so elaborate and real. I saw the peoples in the towers faces and they looked so terrified. I saw them crying and hugging. I saw too much and it honestly made me really sad ever since I woke up... I don't know how else to feel from my dream except scarred. :/

After High School

   Yes, I have thought of what I plan on doing after high school. I plan on moving out in August with my boyfriend Will and working A LOT until I start the spring 2014 session of school at the Scottsdale Community College Film School, and Will starts the spring 2014 session at the AZ Culinary Institute.

   I know moving in with my boyrfiend sounds bad but it's not. It'll be a very good , exciting, and fun thing for the both of us. He has a bit of a rough home life (not too rough, more annoying than rough) and his mom is moving to Virgina soon after graduation anyway and he is so ready to move out. His mom isn't the problem though, it's his 23 year brother who comes and goes who is always angry, never had a job, a drop out and ALWAYS is stealing things. He causes all the stress on Will and so when their mom moves, Will knows he can finally feel safe and doesn't have to always hide his things and he can live peace like he deserves! Will is very responsible and his mom has raised him to be independent and do what needs to be done and he is very good at that. He does the majority of the chores at his house, he cooks every meal, etc...
   I don't have a tough home life at all. I'm an only child and I guess you can say I'm a bit spoiled...thankfully I'm not a bratty spoiled person who takes all of the favors that are done for me for granted. I constantly feel bad that my parents and grandparents literally do everything for me and they do it so much to the point where sometimes I to beg to do things myself. I'm excited to do things without being questioned or having someone step in to help. Like, I literally cant start making pancakes without being mobbed by whoever I am with (my mom, or grandma, dad, or grandpa) by trying to do it for me.  I can finally start being a grown up, or at least feeling like one. I don't want to be babied anymore. I need to learn myself.
Will and I, I feel, will be a good combination of home-bodies since we hold a nice mix of home backgrounds and responsibilities. :)

   Plus we have been together for over 2 years, we are ALWAYS happy, we have never fought, we always have fun, we're mature (enough), we handle things super well, and we just have a very special relationship. Our parents are happy for us and they are fine with us living together because they know it will be a great experience for the two of us. :)

What I Would Want As A Gift If My Birthday Was Next Week

Well... my birthday is in 2 weeks soooo... hahaha:)
Um.. to be completely honest, the best gift I could be given is a JOB!!! I'm not even joking. I want a job so bad. I need one before November so I can get Hawaii tickets for the summer! I just want to feel like a big girl... hahahaha. I want to save my own money and have something to do and get rewarded for it. I won't feel bad for asking for things anymore.

Okay but lets be creative. As a REAL gift, I would looove a really nice camera. I'm a video person but I really want to get into photography too! So obviously a camera could be helpful... But I hate when people spend money on me so in all honesty, I just want to be woken up with like donuts or cinnamon rolls... hahaha:) I am very easy to please!

I am very happy that it is FRIDAY! I'm really tired, and I need to catch up on sleep! And today is just a super easy day because last hour we worked in the computer lab, this hour is always just fun, next hour I'm a TA and we will just be in the computer lab, we took a quiz in math yesterday so today in 4th hour we won't be doing anything new, after lunch I direct the theatre 3-4 class and today will be simple in there, and then in 7th hour we are going to a presentation. Yay! First hour already went by extremely fast so hopefully that was foreshadowing the whole day. Then I hope I get to go somewhere yummy for dinner! Then I think I might go to my cousins this weekend and I'm not sure what else. I want to drive my car and go get job applications or something haha. I really want a job before November. Then in December I can buy Will and myself plane tickets to Hawaii for summer. Good stuff. Blahblahblah. :)

What I Will Make My Kids Do

If I have kids I don't know what I would make them do against their will. Hopefully they will just be raised right to where they will be willing to anything without complaining. But then again, if I have to make my kids to something that most kids don't like doing, I hope I am a parent who makes things fun to do and exciting. Especially when they're really little and you have to act really obnoxious and make the littlest things into games to make them seem fun. I realize I didn't answer the initial question, but I don't have an answer so oh well haha.

My dream WILL come true!!

So Will and I are about to be famous. Hahahaha. We already have a lot of views on our ''Couples Tag'' video, and there will be a lot of views on the ''Boyfriend Does My Makeup Tag'' video once I put it up but THEN I had such a lovely idea last night. So the new Korean pop sensation, PSY's song Gangnam Style is obviously extremely popular. Ellen DeGeneres just started her 10th season and she LOVES that song and she told her viewers so send dancing videos to her with that song. Ellen is my freaking IDOL and it has always been my dream to be on her show and dance with her and/or be a red carpet corespondant for her.  So it clicked! DUHH! Will and I need to make a video dancing to it and send it to Ellen and then my dream could come true! Not only that, my life would be complete, it would be SO fun, it would be the coolest memory EVER, and I would be the happiest person ever. So yeah, you'll see me on Ellen soon. ;)

My Weekend

So since we had a specific post yesterday, I will blog about my weekend today! On Saturday I didn't do anything until about 7 in the evening. My mom and I went to dinner and then she said she had an urge to go spend money because she hadn't done so all day. Sooo we went to Walmart for over an hour and got a whole bunch of stuff and she felt better hahaha. I thought it was funny how she wanted to spend money but whatever, we got useful things. :) Then on Sunday my mom and I went to the DV airport for breakfast and then headed off towards Scottsdale to look at potential future apartments for me! But the car broke down and we were stuck in a parking lot for an hour, so we didn't see any apartments. Then Sunday night, I got all nice and dressed up, got picked up by a fancy Will and we went to The Arizona Broadway Theatre! We saw The Odd Couple and it was great! The food was awesome as well. It was a cute little date and we really enjoyed ourselves. :)

What I do when I get dissapointed.

When I get disappointed, I tend to get over it quickly. But in the brief moments of my disappointment I get quiet and obviously upset. I like to keep to myself and then complain afterwards haha. But I get over it and then I realize I have too good of a life to be upset over stupid things. And I usually don't get disappointed because I tend not to have expectations for anything. I am just dull like that hahaha. But it works! The less I expect, the less I get disappointed and I don't have to waste my time being sad over something stupid that isn't even worth it.

Have I Made A Resume?

I made a fake resume my sophomore year. It was really bad though because I didn't have anything to put on it. If I were to update it now, I'd really only have one thing but I guess it's a really good thing to have on a resume. I was inducted into the International Thespian Society in April and apparently, it is something impressive to have under your belt. I guess we will see how useful that is in the future haha. I might start interning for some wedding cinematographers soon so I think that would look cool on a resume. And I really want to get a job by November, so I should probably make a new resume. Thanks for the reminder haha.






anyway... It's Friday. Woot. :)

I am so glad this week went by fast. I don't know why I wanted to get it over with, but I'm happy I did haha. I'm also glad that it's almost October because it's the best month ever. And it's my birthmonth (that's not why it's my favorite though). I just want to graduate and go to Hawaii with Will and move on with life because life is super exciting! I'm not pushing for the year to be over tooooo quick though because I want to breathe a little during senior year and take it all in and live in the moment. But then again, I've been in school for like a billion years and I'm kind of ready to just go on with life hahaha. I can't wait to see where I go in life. :)

YAY!

I had a very long talk with my mom yesterday. We talked about really important things that the two of us usually shy away from so it was a nice time! :)
Today, Will is coming over after school! We're going to but tickets at the Arizona Broadway Theatre's showing of The Odd Couple! We're going to get tickets for this weekend, so we're super excited. Then we're going to eat together (yay) and then we're going to make another video. On Tuesday when he came over, we did a video called ''Couples Tag'' which I started (and it's hilarious so far) where we answered a bunch of questions about each other and about us being a couple. Today, we're making another popular video tag called ''Boyfriend Does My Makeup'' which is self explanitory. That should be interesting. :)

A Time I Told What Was On My Mind

   I actually told what was on my mind yesterday. Well I do a lot, but I spoke about something that I thought might be risky.

   I really want to lose weight and make my body look nicer so I really wanted to talk to my boyfriend Will about it. I told him a few days ago but we didn't have a conversation about it until last night. I was hesitant to actually explain because I didn't want him to think I was ''talking bad'' about myself like calling myself fat and I didn't want him to think I was just bringing it up for attention. Every once in a while I'll say something bad about myself and even if I'm joking around, it upsets him so I understand why he would think I wasn't serious.

   But I brought it up and told him my game plan, about how I want to actually set up goals. For example, by January I want a flatter and more tone stomach, by January I want my legs to be thinner and tone, and by February I want my arms toned so that by March, I look a lot nicer and presentable!:) I told him I really want to be able to look at myself and actually like what I am looking at, and I also told him I want HIM to look at me and think I look nicer too. :)

   He liked my idea and he didn't get annoyed and he didn't assume that I was just trying to call myself fat ( because I know I'm not ). He said he will help me stay motivated and he also said he would come work out with me sometimes. So I think speaking my mind (in a mature way, without joking around about my jigglyness haha) was worth it, especially if I do meet my goals!

Tuesday!

      So today is Tuesday! Woop woop. Hopefully we can actually continue/finish filming today! And if not then oh well... it's just that I have been dressing nice for the past two weeks in case we were filming the part that Kodi and I will be in, hahaha. :) But I guess it has been beneficial because otherwise, I would have been dressing all lazy and not doing my hair and make up these past weeks haha.
     Today I'm going to pick up Will from his rehearsal, go out to dinner, and then go to my grandmas. We will be doing a video called ''Couples Tag''! Basically, it is a video with a dating couple (obviously) and they answer a bunch of questions about each other and about being a couple. I've seen it on YouTube  for a while now and Will and I are excited to do it ourselves now. :) Yaaaaay! I'm hungry. Bye.

How I Deal With Difficult Issues

WELL... When I have to deal with issues, I tend to go through a little process. Usually I get upset, then over think it, then realize how dumb I probably am for getting upset. I usually have to remind myself that I am fortunate to live the life that I do and I should just be thankful that I'm alive. I ALWAYS tell myself that someone has it so much worse than me. I can't really complain or call anything ''difficult'' while people are dying of terrible diseases, being tortured, being abused, having no food and no place to live... I have no room to complain and neither do 99% of the people constantly complaining on Facebook from an iPhone about how their lives suck. No way Jose.

FIGHT SONG

Yeah I know the fight song! Well I know what it is and I can hear the band doing it in my head.
I know the first line is- Deer Valley Skyhwaks we believe in you.... and then I can only immitate the band after that. hahaha. My boyfriend Will knows the whole thing... da da da daa daa daa daa dum dum dum. Yep! That's all I can do.

Last Trip

My last trip outside of Phoenix was to Hawai'i! I went to visit my family in June and I was there for about 3 weeks. Naturally, we did a lot of things since Hawai'i is fun. It was my 3rd time there but luckily we stayed away from things we have already done to experience new things! Besides going to a bunch of beaches here are some other things we did with some pictures! :)

We went on a really scary and slippery hike to Manoa Falls-


We went on another hike too, which had a view of a lighthouse. :)


We went to the Polynesian Cultural Center which oddly was my favorite thing. :)


I had a picnic across the street fom my cousins at a Japanese Temple-



We did a lot more but I can't wait to go back next summer and take Will! :)

W E D N E S D A Y

I have no idea what to talk about. Like, at all. Oh I know...it's my dads birthday! I hope my grandma will come down from Black Canyon City for a birthday dinner. :) She did last year and we went to Olive Garden. :) Ummm... My birthday is almost here too. In a like a month and a week. I'll be 18...yay? haha.
I want to go to the fair with Will for my birthday...and Homecoming is the weekend of my birthday. So hmmmm! We'll probably still end up going to both haha. I also want to go to the Old Spaghetti Factory for my birthday. So we will see how that all goes. It's weird to think that I'm a senior. My mom is moving to Hawaii soon so I will be moving out and to Scottsdale for college. All weekend she was talking about what furniture I could take and all that. She already assumes I will be living with Will... which is good I guess cause then I don't have to like ask or feel weird about telling her I want to live with him. But she's cool with it so we will see how that goes, too! Fun stuff bro. Senior year bro. Yay bro.

What I Know About The Attacks of 9/11

I know that it was INSANE and ruthless. Now that I'm trying to explain it I don't really know how to. I know that the middle east (Al Qaeda?) was in charge for it and it took a very long time to find Osama Bin Laden and Sadam Hussein and kill them. Last year was the first time the event actually hit me. I mean I was hurt by it and I was aware of it but last year I allowed myself to look up dozens of videos, interviews and pictures and I was the reality finally dawned on me. It took 10 years but then again I was only 6 when it happened. I remember that day though. I woke up and wondered why I wasn't woken up to go to school and when I walked into the living room my grandma and grandpa were just standing in front of the TV just staring at it. I remember seeing the TV but not comprehending what was going on even though they explained it to me. Now throughout the year I still watch videos and allow myself to grieve, now that I am old enough and realize the effect. It's so terrible and I can't imagine (again, since I was only 6) all of the terror the country developed the moment all he chaos emerged. In a way I wish I was older when it happened. It sounds weird but if I was older then I could've known what it was like in the moment and not be impacted 10 years later even though the hurt would still be present either way.

My Weekend

So over the weekend I did a lot of driving in my new car! I feel like I drove forever though. I ended up driving to downtown Glendale to donate some stuffed animals to the Glendale Fire Department. It was such a cute donation because what they do is gather all of the animals and store them in their fire trucks and if they go to a call involving kids, they can comfort them with an animal! :)

Soooo yeah I drove so much haha. It was pretty interesting and I actually feel like a teenager now haha. Its about time, considering that I'll be 18 next month. It's soooo weird! I feel like I should still be 14. I'm excited about the future though! Life is so exciting. :)

I got my first car!

I know I already wrote about buying my first day, but now it's actually home! It had to be in the shop but I got it Wednesday night. It's so cute and I got to show Will yesterday. :) I like it a lot!

So I really want to get into photography. I'm in love with videography which is why I am in here and what I want to as a career but I think photography would be suuuper cool and a really good thing to do on the side. So I might as well get into now-ish. :) I'm looking at like weeding photography portfolios, which would be super fun. And if I'm still with Will I can do food photography, design his menus and make commercials for his restaurant! Doesn't that work out great? And if we wanna get super creative I can produce him a cooking show. That'd be so fun. :) Life is exciting!!

Discipline could mean a lot of things. I take it as a set up structure for yourself. I also take it as the morals and standards you have for yourself. If you don't have discipline its really easy for you to slip and start getting off track of life or just simple goals you have set yourself to.

Weeee!

So yesterday.....

 I BOUGHT MY FIRST CAR!

Well my mom bought it, but still... it's my first car. :)

It's pretty exciting and I should have it home tomorrow or Friday cause its in te shop getting its air conditioning fixed. Then it's all mine! Yay!

I really wish I had my lisence though... I won't have it until December cause I just got my permit in June. But that can be like my Christmas present ro myself I guess haha.
Yaaaaay!

Weekend

Sooo it was a 3 day weekend. Obviously.

So Friday night I took WIll out to Le Chalet for dessert. We had a strawberry chocolate ganache crepe, and we got chocolate fondue which had strawberries, apples, cream puffs and brownies! It was soooo good. :)  Then we spent two hours in Walmart just walking around looking for snuggies hahaha.

Saturday wasn't too exciting. Will came over for dinner and we sat around wondering what to so forever and we never did anything. Typical. :)

Sunday I saw my dad for the first time in like a month. We went out to lunch and then I went to his house for like 25 minutes before he got called into work. He's going through a lot with his stupid girlfriend so thats all he talked about sooo it wasn't a very happy time. But then Will came over and we made a ''welcome home'' sign for my mom cause she came back from Hawaii that night! :)

Yesterday I spent the day with my mom. We went to Chipotle for lunch and then afterwards we went to Barnes and Noble. We had lotsa fun in there, maybe too much fun for being in a library. Then we went home and started putting together our apartment since we moved 2 weeks ago but never really unpacked. Then we went to Panda Express for dinner. :)

blahblahblah yay.

One Interesting Thing About The Sub

One interesting thing about my sub is that he/she is not in the classroom right now but I am.

Okay now she is here. She's interestingly short and quiet.

Fall Play!

Yesterday were the fall play auditions! I've been sick all week and yesterday I just happened to get laryngitis. Perfect timing, right? But my voice was strong enough to make it through auditions AND get a callback for today! But then last night my voice completely went away and I was worried for today since I really really really need it for my callbacks after school. So far my voice is fine so I plan on not talking until I need to after school. The last thing I need is to be rejected for something I have no control over. But I'm excited! And Will did PERFECT at his auditions and of course got a call back. :) The part I really want is the sister of the part Will wants so that'd be really cool if it works out that way! Mrs. Bell would be smart to do that cause Will and I would do NOTHING but rehearse all day and we aren't afraid to critique each other. We would do so great. :) But we will see! I know Will will (haha) get the part he wants. He's like crazy talented. hehehehe.

Most Important Person

The most important people in my life are my mom, dad, grandma, grandpa and Will.
My mom works sooooo much just for ME. She works up to 100 hours a week and never fails to make sure I'm happy and have everything I need (not want). She has always worked a lot and she loves her job as a surgical technician. Some people may think it's damaging that she works that much but she always takes me on nice vacations and we always do fun things together. :) She does so much for me!
My mom worked nights when I was a baby until I was about 3. I was always with my grandparents! They pretty much raised me because I got so used to being with them everyday and I never wanted to leave haha. Still to this day I live mostly with them. :) My grandma spoils me soooo much (too much!!) I always have to tell her not to get me things but she always gets all crazy with random gifts. I know she just does it to make me happy though. And I wouldn't get anywhere without her. She gives me rides everywhere which Is the reason I don't have my own car to drive because she thinks I won't be around and she would be sad if she  never took me anywhere. My grandpa is so sweet:) He helps out my mom if something randomly goes wrong, he's the handyman and/or he will give her a little extra cushin money. And he is the one giving my grandma all the money to drive me places and get me food:) I love my dad without a doubt and he pays my child support but sometimes thats not enough. He's been divorced from my mom for 5 years and at the beginning he still tried hard to help out a little extra. Now he just makes sure child support is payed and complains how he is always broke and can't even spare about $5 or 5 hours to spend with me. He likes his phone, internet and sleeping more than anything. But I still love him and I would be so sad without him! Will has been my best friend for almost 3 years and my boyfriend for 2. :) I've already talked about him in many other posts so it should already be inevitable how much he means to me. :)

Favorite Subject

My favorite subject changes every year. The reason behind that is because my favorite subject depends on the teacher. I hate language arts but its my favorite class because of the teacher. I have the potential to enjoy math, but this year I don't because of the people in my class and the teacher can't really control them. Soooo yeah. I don't have a definite favorite. They're all equal to me and my performance and mood is all dependent on the one teaching.



Guess what?! Auditions for the fall play are tomorrow and I'm sick! :( Hopefully I'm blessed by a miracle and am better tomorrow. But after school Will and I are hanging out to practice over and over and over! I can't really tell if I'm nervous and ignoring it, or just don't care. Hopefully I don't get nervous though cause I really don't want to screw this up.

Weekend

Friday I went to the football game with Will. :) Saturday I did nothing at all. Like...honestly. And yesterday Will came over! he brought over some yummy guacamole he made so we had it with some chips. Then we spent a lot of time rehearsing our monologues together since we are auditioning for the fall play on Wednesday. Will has the biggest chance of getting the lead, there's no doubt. But I have a bit of competition but I'm feeling like I can get a decent role. Yaaaaay:)

Definition

A coach is someone who can help you achieve your full potential to open your mind to endless creativity and ability. Coaches shouldn't be the type who just give you step by step, standard instructions and tell you do do something as its forced to be. Like coach Larsen, good coaches should give you opportunities to perform to your own original potential and show all you can do by what we've been taught, instead of just spitting back up memorized information.

New Rule

If I could make a new rule, it would be all work is turned in by Friday. My math class this year is like that and it's really helpful for people like ME who like to actually take time on things. It gives you all the time through the week to get it done and I wish all classes could be like that. :)

Favorite Band

My favorite band is SUBLIME!!!! But I'm NOT a pothead or druggie or anything bad, despite the stereotypes of Sublime freaks. I'm actually wearing a Sublime shirt today, how convenient. :)
I've loved Sublime since I was 11 and I will never ever ever get sick of listening to them. I wish I was a teenager living in Long Beach in the 90's so I could've been to their concerts. :)
I went to a Sublime with Rome concert in March and it was amaaaaazing! Rome is their new frontman since Bradley Nowell  passed away in 1996 from a herion OD. I really didn't want to listen to Sublime with Rome because I didn't think it'd be the same without Bradley but I ended up loving Rome and the new stuff too. :) If I have a kid I'm naming my son Bradley Roman hahaha:)  I wanna be like a tour filmer for Sublime with Rome. Like go to all of their shows and make a tour DVD for them. That'd be so amazing. :)

I also love  Nicki Minaj, Maroon 5, Casey Abrams, No Doubt, Christina Aguilera, Eminem, Rome Ramirez's solo stuff, Kat Nestel, Gwen Stefanis solo stuff... Yep! No country or metal. No no no.

MyFavoriteSport

I am so terrible at sports. Therefore I do not like playing them. I like to watch some sports though but only if I'm there. It's too boring to watch on t.v. I like going to baseball games and I've been to a celebrity shoot sout basketball game once and that was cool. I've also been to a hockey game. I think it'd be fun to go to the superbowl even though I don't like football. Its just the excitement you get when you're actually at a game, then it's fun. :)

Presidential Canidates.

I can vote this year! :) I know very little about the canidates though but I'll tell you what I know without research...

Mitt Romney is mormon, he is against gay marriage, he is neither pro life or pro choice, he is for keeping the U.S bordered, and his vice president candidate is a very good speaker.

Barack Obama is newly pro gay marriage, he hasn't helped the U.S with the border problem, his health care sucks, and he just hasn't impoved America but I don't think anyone can at this point. Oh and I'm mad at him because at the 10 year memorance of 9/11 he was talking during the moment of silence.

I can vote, but I don't know if I will. If I do It'll be Mitt Romney because at this point no one can save the country so we might as well just bring in somebody new.

Oh and heres a funny side story. On the last election day I was super super super sick and was throwing up all day. The whole day I was just thinking ''this must be a sign since Obama is winning.'' And I think it was a sign because these last 4 years have been a pile of poop having him as president. I like him just as a person though! He seems super nice.... Like if he was a teacher I'm sure he'd be great....he just shouldn't run the country.

This Classroom Is FREEZING.

It was nice walking into this class last year when it was extremely hot by the time 6th hour came around but coming into it in the morning makes it seem 10 times colder. Anyway...
I really hope I can be a TA for this class 3rd hour. They better let me even though Larsen already has two TAs. I just really want my 3rd hour fixed. I'm moving this weekeend! Not really. I'm staying in the same apartment complex but moving into a different apartment. Does that make sense? Hopefully its not raining during that process because we just planned on walking all of our stuff to the new apartment on wagons and dollies SO the rain would ruin that idea.

Senior year week 1 COMPLETE!

Yesterday was the only good day I've had so far. My schedule is all messed up and I'm having trouble fixing it. But yesterday Will and I went to Chipotle after school and hung out for a few hours and it kept my mind off of my scheduling issues whcich have been upsetting me. After we ate, we walked across the street to JC Pennys and we spent like an hour in there. He wants to be a chef so he's always intruiged by kitchen items so we spent a lot of time looking at cooking essentials. Then towards the end, we dot to the curtain area where they have them all displayed on fake stationary doors as samples. We found it to be a perfect place to play hide and seek, so naturally we did. Will is very jumpy and I always scare him so as we were playing hide and seek I saw him trying to sneak to another door I thought he saw me. So since I thought he saw me, I thought he was coming up to scare me so when we came face to face I yelled and he jumped and fell down. It was so funny but I felt bad as usual. Apparently he didn't even see me at all and he wasn't about to scare me hahaha. Then we went to Chic Fil A for a milkshake and it was just a really fun day. :)

Best Memory in Past 2 Days

My best memory happened just last night. My grandma and I were tossing an empty water bottle back and fourth. We were really amused and having fun even though we weren't doing too good. So the last time I threw it, she got it, lost grip of it, caught it again, then lost grip again and then completely DOVE for it and fell and knocked everything off the ottoman and it all fell on her. It all happened in like less than two seconds and it was sooooo funny! (She wasn't hurt at all) and we couldn't breathe from laughing so hard. :)