Favorite Actor/Actress...

I really don't have a favorite actor or actress. I basically like anyone who does a lot of comedy like Kristen Wiig and Maya Rudolph...I feel bad for not having anything to say for this... I'm not much a movie person. I'd rather film, make and edit them. Hahaha. :)

Favorite TV Show

My favorite TV show is ELLEN!! :) I love Ellen haha. I love coming home, getting comfy, getting a snack and then just relax and watch her show. Being on her show is my dreeeaaam! She's just so weird and super funny and I totally want to have a show just like hers when I grow up. I'll list some other TV shows I watch because otherwise I will ramble on about Ellen forever.

I likeeee
- Long Island Medium
- Married to Jonas...hahahaha
- Full House!!!
- Saturday Night Live
- Teen Mom even though it's over now
- Jersey Shore and I don't care what anyone says, I find the show amusing. So get over it. hahaha

My Weekend

So my plan for Friday was to fill out all of my applications and take them to the places and fill up enough time until 3 o'clock when Will got out of rehearsal. So I did that and I turned in about 5 applications. So as far as plans with Will went, we were supposed to go to dinner then carve pumpkins but after we ate, we forgot and went to the mall instead. At the mall we turned in 4 applications and it was lotsa fun! So Saturday we ended up carving pumpkins and it was Wills first time doing so. I think he had a deprived childhood because there are so many things he hasn't done, but then its fun for me cause then I know that he'll remember doing things with me for the first time forever! :) His pumpkin turned out really good and I'm pretty sure he had a lot of fun! Yesterday was terrible and it was suuuuch a long day. I layed there forever and had very bad and random anxiety. I didn't feel good so I just layed there like a bum all day. And I was in a bad mood and I still am but oh well. I'm just ready for this week to be over because this week is going to suck for reasons I'd rather not talk about because there is a good chance I'll cry. So yeah. Yay. Woo. Stuff.

Where I Get My Belief System

I get my belief system from nothing but my crazy mind. My dads parents are really really Christian and religious so until 2nd grade I was in a Christian school. My mom and dad aren't religious though, so once my dads parents stopped being so pushy with how to raise me, we stopped going to church. I have no ''religion'' really. I don't have time to waste believing in something that might not even be beneficial. I belive after you die, you're dead. You don't go anywhere. Your existence is gone. You don't go anywhere but in the ground or into a cremator... you're just dead. But I do believe in spirits :) .... hahahaha that's unrelated but oh well. :) You're spirit can leave a legacy and live on but you yourself are nothing. That sounds so blunt, but it's true.


Here's my ''religion''... I have this exact canvas in my room! :)

Are My Parents Coming To Parent Teacher Confrences?

Nope! They're not. I feel like parent-teacher conferences are for students how are troublesome or doing poorly academically. I fall into neither of those categories. I'm pretty sure if we were to come for conferences we would just hear ''She's doing well with her work, she's quiet, and there's nothing to worry about'' from all of the teachers. So it's kind of pointless. And if a teacher thinks I can do something to improve myself, they can just tell me in class. haha. It would be nice to talk to all of my teachers with my parents but it'd be a waste of time to the teachers because they probably have really important and necessary confrences to take care of. Weee.


So I'm excited for after school cause my grandma, mom and I are going to Ginger for lunch! It's a very yummy Chinese bistro place. And it's healthy, so that makes me happy since I'm trying to lose some weight. Then I'm going to drive around to take some applications to places. I spent a long time yesterday printing out and filling out applications online and on paper. So far online I've applied for 6 or 7 jobs and then I have 6 to take to places today. And I have a feeling thats what I'm going to do all weekend because I really want a job!!! I need a food handlers card though and Will was supposed to give my his practice study book but his brother lost it. Then I'm also excited to get my license in a couple of weeks! It all sounds fun and exciting so hopefully ALL of it will work out well!

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I am soooo tired. The wedding project was due today and I had to finish it up last night, but everything was going wrong haha. It was a really wasy project, just not when your partner leaves you to do so much by yourself. But that's still my fault and oh well. It turned out very nice so I don't really care. I'm just excited to go night night.

One Thing I Want To Do Before I Get Out Of High School

One thing I'd like to do (by the end of the year, for me) is get a nice/decent part in the musical. Mrs. Bell doesn't like me and for the past 4 years of putting up with either getting no roles, crappy roles and suuuper annoying people, I don't think a good role is too much to ask for. She doesn't really know how much I am capable of. And not to be rude but after 4years of seeing/being in the productions, her casting isn't too flattering and I could do just as well as everyone else, including the leads. I'm pretty sure she doesn't like me because I'm quiet but that shouldn't matter because I believe that I am a good performer. I got a nice part in Guys and Dolls last year as a hotbox girl and I love love loved it. I would like a just as good or better part. Especially after getting NO part in the freaking fall play which I worked sooooo hard to get!! It was the first time I actually felt confident, even though I was terribly sick, and then I got shot down like no other. GRRRR. Anywayy.....It wouldn't kill her to give me something I've been trying to work at all this time in high school. Unless the musical they pick is dumb then I don't want to do it. Hahahahaha. Just kidding. But seriously.

I'M 18 NOW!

Sooo yesterday I turned 18 and I had a very fun and perfect weekend. I had a birthday dinner on Friday then I went to the homecoming game with Will which was fuuuun, Saturday Will took me to the fair and it was perfect and so so so so fun, and then yesterday Will was over all day, brought me donuts and pumpkin coffee, a lava lamp and some lotion. Yaaaay. Oh and then I went out to dinner with my mom, dad and Will and it was a lot of fun. It was so fun and I said fun like a billion times but that's what it was. So yay. :)

Free Press Definition

The definition of free press is politic related press that is not restricted or censored by the government. Compared to state run media, things are censored and restricted but obviously by the state and not the government.

What is Propaganda

Propaganda, to me, is like persuasive advertising. It's used a lot in politics and they're made to develope others attitudes towards something. Visually, they're usually obnoxious and ''loud'' to get attention and lure people into what they think others should believe.

Do You Believe Everyone Should Be Equal?

That's a hard question. I guess not, because no one is equal. There are nice people, mean people, insane people, smart people, harmful people, nurturing people... on and on and on. No one treats each other equal anyway, so there is no use in really forcing it to happen because it's not going to. Theres no way to make every single person act once certain way towards anyone. Instead of equal, depending on what kind of person you are, you should treat everyone nice unless they give you a reason not to which most people end up doing. hahaha.

Thoughts About Wearing Pink During Breast Cancer Awareness Month

Well, I'm a little hypocritical about wearing specific colors for awarenesses. Like I think wearing blue for bullying and yellow for suicide awareness is pointless because wearing a color isn't going to stop the bullying or reduce suicide rates. But I do like wearing pink for breast cancer even though it's not going to stop or get rid of breast cancer. I like it because I can tell people genuinely care about the cause. I also like it because it gives a whole month instead of one day. But I think we need to be aware of bad things all year round, not just one day or month. Every cause should have a week out of the year so every week we're taking part of something important. Wearing colors alone won't take problems away, but if it was a constant thing maybe it would drill into someones soul to the point of actually taking part in something to actually help. :)

Journal

So yesterday I was visited twice by the idea Gods... hahaha. I finally have an actual plan for after school. I mean I already had a plan, but it wasn't super elaborate until yesterday but it's still related. I was going back and forth between doind wedding cinematography and television producing but then I was enlightened haha. I am going to start a videography business for pretty much everything! I will make little commercials for businesses' websites like hotels, apartments, restaurants, and hospitals along with providing them with slide shows of their facilities to play in their offices. Then, along with businesses, I will do personal things too and providing DVDs now that I know how to publish DVDs and make DVD menus thanks to Mr. Larsen! :) This way, I can still work with weddings by doing slide shows for them but then I thought of a gift plan for weddings and baby showers! So this would mean for anyone who was going to a wedding or baby shower, or even if they couldn't make it, I could meet with all of the people and they could give ''well wishes'' to the newlyweds or the new parents and then the DVD would be the gift! :) I can also publish DVDs for parties, or go to high schools to film their dance concerts, fall plays, and musicals. I am so excited and I think it's an awesome idea. It gives me the variety I would want, instead of just working with weddings all the time. Then if I get bored with that then I can go into crime scene photography because for a long time I wanted to work on crime scene, so that works out perfect! :) Then, I came up with ANOTHER idea for home. Will is going to culinary school , so I can totally make him a cooking channel on YouTube and then give him like a blog that I can run, and that can be how we make our extra money during college. :) Sooo I told my mom this, and for my first practice thing for a website commercial, my mom is going to set up a meeting with her CEO and me to talk about it and hopefully set it up! She knows he will let me, so I'm excited to get a head start to make sure my idea actually has some promising value haha. and if this seems to be promising, instead of blowing a ton of money on Film School, I might only take a couple related classes here and there to help me improve my skills since degrees aren't even promising or even needed anymore. If you're skilled, you will have a nice future no matter what. Being smart isn't enough these days because anyone can get a degree. So I might have to tweak my college plans a little bit. But I'm really excited! :) Life is so exciting!!

Biggest Test Or Project Coming Up

On the 24th my wedding project for economics is due. It's such a huge project but it's been really easy. It's a lot of fun too, and I feel lucky because I got paired up with a girl who I've known since freshman year. I'm glad I didn't get paired with a guy who either I didn't know, didn't like, or a guy who wouldn't help with the project. We have to get married within $10,000 and our honeymoon budget is $2,000 but the requirements are very strict and specific. We're about half way done but we only have 2 more weeks.

Current Events That I'm Interested In

I don't know any current events to be honest. The only one I can think of, if it even counts, is the elections going on...but I am not very interested in them hahaha. I feel bad for not knowing any... I feel pretty dumb too. haha. But it's so weird thinking about the crazy events going on worldwide and how corrupt and scary other countries are. I feel lucky to live in the United States and I feel loved knowing that hundreds and hundreds of men are over seas fighting for my freedom so I don't have to live like other unfortunate countries. And that is all I can think to say since I am uneducated of currents events. Whoops.

So I am a theatre director for the 3/4 theatre class along with Will and a girl named Megan and today we get to tell the class whose one act they've been casted in!! I'm so excited! I realized after I casted that I have everyone who I wanted to be in my one act haha. But today before we tell them, we are going to have a fake fight to make it seem like we're fighting over who we want in our casts. It's going ot be sooo funny! Ahhh I'm so excited. I really love my cast already but they don't even know they are my cast. muahahaha >:)

Did I Watch The Presidental Debate?

No. I was here at school ordering my cap & gown and graduation things, and once I got home it was almost over. I'm not sure if I would have watched it though even if I was home because at this point, no one can really help our country. We have gone down hill way too much, so even though Obama has done nothing to help I don't think Romney could do all too much either. I think we need Ellen Degeneres as a candidate. I think she is most qualified and more likely to improve our country with happiness and dance. I can only imagine how majestic and exciting the country could be under her power hahaha. In a perfect world, Ellen would be president. And that is all. :)

My Dream Last Night

   So I had the craziest dream last night.

   It was sad, creepy, and it was just weird that I had it. So in my dream I was with my mom and we went to New York to see the Twin Towers. In my dream, 9/11 was still an event that happened but the towers never collapsed and they were turned into museums. Every single thing was left in the towers- the plane, the people, the damage, the debris... it was honestly terrifying.

  So how it worked in my dream was you would take the elevator to whatever floor, and when the doors would open you saw the entire floor. My mom wanted to go to a lot of floors, but after going to 2 we stopped since I was crying because I was really upset and scared. It really creeped me out because we went on the floor below the floor that the plane crashed through and they had like a ''4D experience'' type thing. My mom and I didn't do it, but we watched. 
They explained how when the plane crashed through the floor above it crashed into a water pipe and flooded that floor, so as the people sat and listened to the story they had water flow over their feet.


   Besides the unrealistic ''4D attraction'', the dream was so elaborate and real. I saw the peoples in the towers faces and they looked so terrified. I saw them crying and hugging. I saw too much and it honestly made me really sad ever since I woke up... I don't know how else to feel from my dream except scarred. :/

After High School

   Yes, I have thought of what I plan on doing after high school. I plan on moving out in August with my boyfriend Will and working A LOT until I start the spring 2014 session of school at the Scottsdale Community College Film School, and Will starts the spring 2014 session at the AZ Culinary Institute.

   I know moving in with my boyrfiend sounds bad but it's not. It'll be a very good , exciting, and fun thing for the both of us. He has a bit of a rough home life (not too rough, more annoying than rough) and his mom is moving to Virgina soon after graduation anyway and he is so ready to move out. His mom isn't the problem though, it's his 23 year brother who comes and goes who is always angry, never had a job, a drop out and ALWAYS is stealing things. He causes all the stress on Will and so when their mom moves, Will knows he can finally feel safe and doesn't have to always hide his things and he can live peace like he deserves! Will is very responsible and his mom has raised him to be independent and do what needs to be done and he is very good at that. He does the majority of the chores at his house, he cooks every meal, etc...
   I don't have a tough home life at all. I'm an only child and I guess you can say I'm a bit spoiled...thankfully I'm not a bratty spoiled person who takes all of the favors that are done for me for granted. I constantly feel bad that my parents and grandparents literally do everything for me and they do it so much to the point where sometimes I to beg to do things myself. I'm excited to do things without being questioned or having someone step in to help. Like, I literally cant start making pancakes without being mobbed by whoever I am with (my mom, or grandma, dad, or grandpa) by trying to do it for me.  I can finally start being a grown up, or at least feeling like one. I don't want to be babied anymore. I need to learn myself.
Will and I, I feel, will be a good combination of home-bodies since we hold a nice mix of home backgrounds and responsibilities. :)

   Plus we have been together for over 2 years, we are ALWAYS happy, we have never fought, we always have fun, we're mature (enough), we handle things super well, and we just have a very special relationship. Our parents are happy for us and they are fine with us living together because they know it will be a great experience for the two of us. :)

What I Would Want As A Gift If My Birthday Was Next Week

Well... my birthday is in 2 weeks soooo... hahaha:)
Um.. to be completely honest, the best gift I could be given is a JOB!!! I'm not even joking. I want a job so bad. I need one before November so I can get Hawaii tickets for the summer! I just want to feel like a big girl... hahahaha. I want to save my own money and have something to do and get rewarded for it. I won't feel bad for asking for things anymore.

Okay but lets be creative. As a REAL gift, I would looove a really nice camera. I'm a video person but I really want to get into photography too! So obviously a camera could be helpful... But I hate when people spend money on me so in all honesty, I just want to be woken up with like donuts or cinnamon rolls... hahaha:) I am very easy to please!