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The topic is about the green screen project, but since I was not a part of it I guess I will ramble! Soo I'm kind of mad about the musical because people are probably already mentally casted and auditions are probably pointless because of that. Like I could give you the cast list right now. It's so obvious. It upsets me because it makes me feel like I have no chance, again. Uggghhh. It's not like giving me the part I want will ruin the musical. I just really hope I get lucky. I am so desperate for the part of Dulcie... hahaha. Soooo annoying. But we will see! So this weekend I gotta get my stuff together!! I have to work tomorrow, and probably Sunday but I also have to do a book report that's due Tuesday but I haven't even read. SENIORITIS AT IT'S BEST! But I get my check today so...yay.

Last Time I Did Something Nice For Someone

I try to do something nice for someone everyday but those are usually small and almost unimportant things. But the last time I did something SUPER nice was last week on Thanksgiving. I work at Mrs. Fields/Pretzelmaker at the mall and the people who close get to take home all of the the leftover cookies. So since I worked the night before Thanksgiving I brought home a lot of cookies to have with dessert. I knew it would be me, my mom, her boyfriend, my grandma and grandpa so I made sure I got specific cookies for everyone. I do that every time I close but not for my moms boyfriend because I don't see him. But it was a big deal that I brought him special cookies because he's not my all time favorite person and he kind of knows that so I felt really nice bringing him nice cookies. I'm sure I've done plenty of nice things since then buuuuut I don't know haha.

I think for the first time in this class I'm not freezing! I'm cold...just not freezing haha. :) So I'm very worried for a project I have coming up. It's considered a book report but the format isn't like one. It's pretty easy buuuuut I haven't read any book and it's due next week! I know I can do it and still do a decent job but I just don't know where to begin and I only have until Tuesday, and I can't work on it Saturday. I better start working on it today but who knows. I do SUPER well with things I procrastinate on (always better than when I work on things for a long time) and I always do it all at once because once I start I keep going until I'm done but I'm just dreading the whole process of doing it hahaha. Its my fault though so I can't complain. Just kidding, yes I can. :) Also next week issssssss musical auditions!!!!! I have been waiting for this!! I am so looking forward to the musical this year because even though we just found out the musical we're doing last week, I had a feeling it would be The Boy Friend so I've been ''studying'' it since summer so I am SO prepared and determined to get the role I am dying to have! hahaha. Okay I think I'm done talking before I accidentally start rambling about something else.

Favorite Christmas Memory

I can't pick just one memory to be my favorite. I just really miss every Christmas that my mom, dad and I were the cutest little family. This year will be the 5th Christmas without them together...dang haha. But it makes me really sad because Christmas was always awesome.

I used to loooove how festive my dad used to get with Christmas lights. Our house was the most popular on the block every year. We would always have people parked across the street just admiring the prettiness. We honestly would have hundreds of strands, thousands of lights. It would take him about a month to do and it was always perfect. I just remember the day he would start taking out the lights was so exciting to me. Now every time I see Christmas lights it makes me really sad..haha. My mom misses the lights too and of we're driving and see a house with lights we'll judge the crap out of it and then laugh at ourselves and I'm pretty sure its a way to cover our sadness. hahaha.

But Christmas was always the same. Christmas Eve night, the 3 of us would leave at about 7 o'clock and drive around for a few hours looking at Christmas lights. Then we'd get back around 9 and then open presents. There were always so many presents for all 3 of us... That also makes me miss going Christmas shopping for my mom with my dad, and for my dad with my mom. But then Christmas Day we would go to my moms side of the family's party thing and then my dads. We always went to both sides which was super cool.

The first couple of years of my parents being separated I would still do the Christmas Eve night with my mom and then Christmas breakfast with her and then go with my dad on Christmas afternoon-evening. But now my dad is in a weird funk and I've been spending Christmas alllll with my mommy and I'm fine with that. I just wish I could go back live those Christmas's again with the 3 of us together...

Smile!

I'm very happy today! But it's funny, everytime I'm happy I always notice I have a bored look on my face. I can be screaming of excitement on the inside but on the outside my face is like blank. So don't let my unexpressed face fool you hahaha. But I'm happy because Will is back home from Texas, and Christmas is coming up and I get payed Friday, and I have sooo many fun plans for December starting next week with musical auditions and getting my license!!!! AHHH! I'm sooo excited. :)) Yayayayayayayay. See, I'm super excited but I probably look so stoic hahaha.

Soo besides Thanksgiving Day itself, I worked everyday of the break hahaha. But on Friday my mommy and I set up the Christmas tree and then Saturday I went out to dinner with my grandma and grandpa. But yeah I was at work most of the time. :) And I'm pretty sure I gained 50 pounds on Thanksgiving but it was soo worth it.

Happy Thanksgiving Eve!! & My plans for Thanksgiving.

I'm soo happy that it's thanksgiving tomorrow!! Happy Thanksgiving Eve! haha. Okay my plans for tomorrowwww.... My grandma, grandpa, and my moms boyfriend are coming over and my mommy and I are making most of the food! I'm really excited to have it at out place this year. :) Oh and I wanna wake up early to watch the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade but I haven't gotten much sleep lately and I work tonight so I'm going to be so tired. But I think I'll still force myself to wake up early. :)

I feel like everyone has donuts. In first hour the monopoly winners got donuts, on the way to this class I saw someone with a donut, and now I'm watching the Newspaper people eating donuts. SOOO TEMPTING! I am trying so hard to be healthy...until tomorrow of course. I give myself tomorrow and Friday as a free day but after that I have to continue eating healthy. I'm really wanting to look nicer but I love food, so it's been kind of difficult for me haha.

Oh so yesterday was one of the best days ever!! Sooo in this class (sorry Coach Larsen) I finished making a calendar for Wills Chrismas present and I wanted to see how much it would be because last year I got a tiny discount and it was $23. So I clicked check out and it was going to be $30 but then I remembered I had a discount code. So after entering the code it was about $23 and I was wondering when I could buy it. But THEEEN for some reason I decided to google ''shutterfly discount codes'' and there was a code for a FREE calendar! I got super excited but wasn't sure if it was a fake code so I went back to shutterfly, entered the code and then THE TOTAL WAS $6.00!! The only thing charged was S&H!! So right away out of instinct I took out my card and ordered it cause that was like the best deal ever and it's already been through production, it's sent out, and it should be here next week!! Hahaha I got so super happy and that was just 1 of 3 things that made my day great! So I'll sum up the second thing.. at lunch I talked to my mom and she said she was planning on getting the Hawaii tickets for Will and me for summer!! She said they are really cheap right now and within the next couple of weeks we're going ot have to plan dates and buy tickets! THAT made my day like a billion times even happier! THEN to top it off....I found out the musical is going to be THE BOY FRIEND!!!!! I was DYING for it to be that so I'm soooooo happy!! Will and I want very specific parts and we are super determined to get them! YAY! It was just a super great day! :)

What Are You Thankful For?

I am sooo happy that this was the question because I've been wanting to do something involving what I'm thankful for! So yay!:)

Well I'm a very thankful person because I think I am very lucky to live the life that I do because I know many people would do anything to have a life like mine. I don't mean that in a bragging way, I just think a lot of people are more fortunate than they realize, and I realize it so I cherish it. :)

 Now for a list! I am thankful for:

-My mom who works SOO hard for me and herself to be able to eat, have shelter and ALWAYS fun.
-My dad who even if I don't see him too often he still makes me smile.
-My grandma and grandpa who have always been my second set of parents who give me sooo much.
-My boyfriend Will who has been my best friend for almost 3 years now and he brings so much fun and nothing but happiness to my life.
-My job since a lot of people struggle to have one.
-Music and the fun dances they put upon me.
-Fooood! I love foooood!! I could cry about how happy I am that I can always have food.
-Clean water because I love water and a lot of places can't enjoy their water because it is unconsumable.
-My education! It's free and we have more technology at schools than 3rd worlds could ever fathom.
-The Ellen Show and all the joy it brings to me every day and the hope it gives me to be on the show haha:)
-Technology because without it I don't know what I would ever do as a career.
-My comfy bed because so many people don't even have one.
-My ''cousin'' Jake who lives over 2,000 miles away. We wait alllll year to see eachother and then have the most fun together every time as if we will never see eachother again. I don't think our friendship would be the same if he lived here because I don't think we would cherish our friendship as much.
-My Hawaii ''Family'' (My moms boyfriends family) Sue, Calvin, Sandy, Bruce, Jake and Dominic because they treat me better than most of my actual family. There's nothing better than waiting all year to fly to Hawaii and get there and be able to have an amazing time with the funniest and nicest people who take care of you every day. :)